ok so seems like forever and a day since i updated but seeing as i'm on hols at the mo i finally have time to update. so placement is over. and i was just getting used to being a normal student again when we broke up(ah well guess 2 weeks off is better than having lectures i guess.) placement weas awesome i enjoyed mit so so much. its defo what i wanna do. i was on a general surgical ward so got to experience loads of diff things. i even went to therate,. i saw a torsion repair-really wished i had asked what it was before i went lol and also a fundoplication. i kinda miss being on placement but at leatsd i don't have to get up at 5:30am anymore, also figured nursing is what i'm gonan be doin rest of my life so doesnt matter too much. start my next placement in may which is community but i'm in worle so gonna have mileage to travel each day.

i am loving uni at the mo. lectures can be a bit boring but hey it's not the end of the world. had my 2 essays and exam back and luckily ive not failed got one more back in a few weeks and have one more due in july. we've all got a bit worried tho coz we cant move into our 2nd yr with a failed module and our next essay we cant re-do! loving my flat mates too we all get on really well and have many awesome nights out togther plus our random drives. i'm living with 4 of them next year plus one guy! we got our house, it's like 5mins from my uni. apparently its really nice(not actually seen it) 7 bedrooms kitchen/dining room/living room plus a conservatory! and backgarden, and i've already decided i want my 21st in it.

mmm what else has happened. its werid its been so long since i've updated but i guess actually being on placement means i've not been up to a great deal. church day away at home was awesome as was the hope 2008 raodshow. i've had 1 week off which has been awesome just catching up with everyone. had my hair dyed atched a few dvd's with nix and dave went shoppin on weds then to panache which was muchly awesome. got 1 more week off so hopin to see more people and sunbathe-spent 2 hours in my garden earlieranyways i'm off much love to you all HAPPY EASTER JESUS HAS RISEN WAHOO!xxxx

random thoughts

so lifes pretty good at the mo dispite being slighty busy but hey its all good fun. end of nov saw my first(and only exam) of my first year and dispite total lack of revsion i found it ok. i've also given in my first assignemnt. 3000 words about interporfession working and my refledctions of it! to be fair it is a good think to learn but actully having to write an essay about groups does seem slightly strange. Am currnelty working ion another assignment(ive done 100 words-so does count as working on it lol) about health inequalities and why some socail groups expereince more. am now longer doing letcures as am on placement now instead however every other week we're in uni for work based learning days. have only done 2 weeks of my placement so far but i love it loads. its so enjoyable and the nurses are really nice and the kids are sweet and the families just seem really lovely and also have got to play loads too! i'm on a general surgery ward so it involves loads of pre and post op care like pain releif etc. hopefully my mentor is gonna arrange it so i can go and watch an op which should be exciting but also bit scary! my shifts are either 730am-330pm or 12-8pm which are too bad. altho gettin up at 530am is some times bit tircky however i have perfected the art of gettin ready plus shower in 15mins!

went on the woodies student w/e away at end of nov which was an amzing w/e away. satyed in a castle and everything(altho being in the hanging room was a bit creepy!). the theme was work of the holy spirit and we had ministry time on the sat eve which was awesome and yeah a real sens eog God being there. did a walk on the sat and some how i fell over like 5 times and got caked in mud! but did win the damsel in distress award! was a muchly good w/e and it was greta just gettin to know some of the other students

am currently on christmas hols(wahoo) although coz i'm on placement i start back on the 2nd jan! but hey i'm still in bristol and others are still gonna be here so not gonna be too bad! have just had a really nice week of relaxing and seeing people who have come back. its been so so lush. went to dundry inn on weds and then as christmas tradition watched muppet christmas carol-such a very very awesome film. late night shoppin with mum on thurs and i got sent out the shops so she could buy me some presents lol! mmm still havent finished my wrapping lol. normally i'm organised but this year its resorted to to wrapping just before i see people.its weird ive not seen my flat mates for over a week which when you've seen them pretty much for 3 months is a bit strange-but we'll make up for it when we get back :)went out fri to ramshackle which was awesome. started in hogs head where they played some christmas music then headed to the academy where they palyed even more! and yeah just something about standing in a circle swaying with some of your best friends. right at the end when most people had gone they put on walking in the air an we all just ran around dancing and then i got a rendtion of we wish you a merry christmas goign! twas a very awesome night-plus we're on the website!

its werid this time next week will be the last day of 2006! its bee a strange year full of quite a few ups and downs. at the start of the year i was on the year team at woodies living there and now live in fishponds and actully doin placements in the hospital. all in all though dispite some tough times this year has been pretty positive and i think i've changed quite a bit but dont think in a bad way. anyways i should be off really better finish wrapping and stuff. i hope you all have an awesome christmas much much love xxx

my thoughts

hey hey hey. well its been a while. its werid i've been at uni 8/9 weeks but to be honest seems so much longer! i guess living with people is pretty intesnse (even thom we all get on so well),and i see people on my course nearly everyday so i guess you just bond so much quicker.

uni stuff is going pretty well. we get uniforms next week! i'll be like a proper(student) nurse! its all quite exciting though the trousers are rather horrid! think start placement in just under a month which is flippin scary! i'm on ward 31 in childrens hospital. its general surgery for 0-9yrs! might even have the chance to see an op! its werid i've always wanted to do nursing since i was about 10 and its finally happening.

i now even seem to have some sorta routine with my evenings which actully is good coz i think structure helps me more-coz i iknow how much time i haver free and stuff. monday and thurs dont' really do much, have people ovger, see people spend time with flat mates food shopping films sorta stuff. tues is pastorate/hg. weds go to cu and then fridays we tend to head into town. mainly ramshackle-and oh yes am on the website form last fri!

some slightly sad(well not really, not sure what it is) news. MY CAR GOT CLAMPED! ok i was in the wrong (did park in a disabled bay) but to be fair parking at glenside is a nightmare. £40 to have it released. did feel like prize idiot tho coz there was a car in a no parking bit and i said to the guy why on earth hasnt that one been clamped? turns out is a disabled car which couldnt get get into a bay! but to be fair there were people in all other sorts of stupid places(double yellows etc) which didnt get clamped because apparently uwe told him only do disabled bays! but walked past today and no-one was clamped!

life is pretty mixed i guess at the mo. its werid i guess. i love it here have great mates love my course and am still in bristol so still have my mates and woodies people but arrr i don't know. i guess maybe i'm just feelin slightly stressed at the mo coz i appear to have so so much work to do(ip, exam arrr) and just i know it has to be done but dont seem to havr the motivation to do it. mmm maybe its just something that gets better with time. also am finding it hard to sleep again which never really helps. seem to take ages to egt to bed then wake up in the night(feeling quite awake) then cant get up in the morning.

God stuff is pretty mixed to i guess. i know he's around me and stuff but i guess i dont always feel it. i know we shouldnt rely on feelings but i guess we're all human and tend to time to time.

mmm seem to be quite thoughtful recently, but i guess i'm still adjusting. this year is so diff to last. for a start live with 5 non-christians which i dont mind as i dont wanna be in a "christian bubble" but mmm i dont' know. i do miss the support and just chats and stuff. but i guess actually still better as i'm still at woodies and still have some of the same people around.

this all seems a bit down and stuiff and iu guess maybe i'm feeling like that a bit, but at the same time do enjoy it and stuff. does that even make sense. anyways i'm off to bed, before i ramblke on much more xxx

why oh why can't i sleep? i so so tired but have just been lying in bed for an hour! arrrrrrrrrrrr

arrrr. it's happened! i'm now organising my work! i cant be bothered to do work even though i really should so i'm putting it all in folders. although i have made a list of what i need to do and whne by. mmmm got a lot to do by fri opps!

so the weekend. was good. went to ramshackle with 2 of my flat mates on fri. was really good, much joy and much dancing was had.

had bit of a lie in sat but still felt tired nearly all day. went to nailsea with 2 of my mates to see our old ranger who had a brain hemmorage back in jan. she seemed to be doing really well, able to walk and do nearly everthing now. but at the same time it was werid, there were some parts of her which seemed the same but some parts which have changed. but i guess being in hospital for 9 months is kinda gonna do that.

had a really lush day yesterday. went to woodies in the morning and pam spoke and it was really good. went to the windmill pub in portishead. it was really lush and just really relaxing. and i was so impressed with my desert i actully took a photo of it. went for a quick walk along the front and round the lake. drove back then went back to nettie's with james.k and diggaory as we only had about an hour and half before the evening service. church was good in the eve. tim's talk kinda compared saul to david and why one succeded snd one didnt. and how their traits we can have too and what we really need. had communion and i managed to slightly get our my fear and i actully went up for prayer. i guess its been quite hard. this year is so different to last just like what i'm doing and living in a different environment i guess mi've just found it a bit harder to adapt. I honestly love it here and stuff but i guess just sometimes it's quite hard. and i know i've not been spending enough time with God as i should, which doesn't really make things easier. it just maks me feel worse. arrrr life can so confusing at times. i know i just need to trust in God and it'll all be ok, but sometimes i guess it's easier said than done. i mean its not like a total disaster i get on so well with my flat mates and love them to pieces but i guess yeah just not being as disciplined as i should be and its sometimes hard to, i know i just need to make the time to. but sometimes even when i do God feels so far away. But we shouldn't rely on our feelings God is always here and always knows what we're going through so He's the best person to talk to. I think i just need to cling to those truths and stuff.mmm i should probs go and do some uni work really

am loving the uni lifestyle. i get lie in's(most of the time) and go out quite a lot, but opnly prob is never seem to work in my free time. have a 3000 essay due in end of nov and have no idea how to do it. apparently tho we're gonna talk about it in ip next week which should be helpful as we only have 2 ip lectures left. so this week. went to ramshackle with sarah, dave and ian last week but also meet up with hanna and becky and elanor which was really cool. jonathan left on sat to go to lancaster. didnt go to bed til about 5am fri which probs wasnt most sensible things as i was knackered and had really bad cough(but then again when are studenst ever sensible?). went home sat saw family and just had a night in as i couldnt stop coughing. sunday went to church and coughed my way through both sermons lol. didnt do much in the afternoon. popped and saw justin and esther and also dee. lectures have been ok this week. monday had a seminar on health and genes and was only 1 hour as we got all the work done in that time! went bowling in the eve and i won! got 130ish points including 3 strikes and 2 half strikes. decieded never to go again as dont thinki i can beat that!pastorate was good. we looked at worship and kinda hearing from God and focused on a passage in 1 cor. was really awesome and i guess some did seem quite relevant.weds had a lecture in the morning then went to woodies with 3 other uwe people for a student prayer ministry training. was really good and kinda did a bit at start of year team but think just doing again will help coz i so hate praying out loud. went to cu in the eve and it was good but i was so so knackered was almost asleep. meant to have an early night but ended up stayin up til like 2:30amish chattin to my flat mate. was gonna have a lie yesterdasy btu stupid fire alarm went off. heard an intermittant beep and thought i was alarm but realised it wasn't. we then left the buildin in pj's hoosy and shoes only to find out that was only a warning alarm. so stummbled back inside onl;y fopr the proper alarm to go off agin so went back out and had to wait around in the rain. had a 3 hour lecture with only a ten min break so felt very brain ded by the end of it. went out with sain for a bit in the eve. went ikea shoppin and i got wrappin paper to cover my notice borad and then got excited about bath mats!had a very lazy day today. didnt get up til 11am and then got dressed at like 2pmish! but to be honest i only got dressed coz i had ip at 3:40pm(so didnt feel motivated to go.)anywasy stuff is goin pretty well. think just need to sleep a bit more as i know my mood always goes up and down much more when i'm tired. right i should go to bed as i've just got in, and am feelin muchly tired

so intended a early night last night but so didn't happen! am feeling rather sleepy now tho. church was good last night got to sit on a comfy purple sofa. had a meeting with my personnal tutor this morning to talk about how i'm settling in and stuff it feels like i've been her so much longer than 2 weeks. meant to have a 3 hr lecture on 2 diff things but one guy didnt turn up, so we just had the inequaltites in health one, which actually found really interesting, and do have a 3000 word essay to do on it. we looked at a report called the black report which looked at mortality rates and then why discussed the inequalties and why they might occur. went to tesco bought some food and not done much else. see have work to do and need to tidy my room but it all just takes effort to do. mmm probs hould go pick up my clothes from the tumble dryer.