why oh why can't i sleep? i so so tired but have just been lying in bed for an hour! arrrrrrrrrrrr

arrrr. it's happened! i'm now organising my work! i cant be bothered to do work even though i really should so i'm putting it all in folders. although i have made a list of what i need to do and whne by. mmmm got a lot to do by fri opps!

so the weekend. was good. went to ramshackle with 2 of my flat mates on fri. was really good, much joy and much dancing was had.

had bit of a lie in sat but still felt tired nearly all day. went to nailsea with 2 of my mates to see our old ranger who had a brain hemmorage back in jan. she seemed to be doing really well, able to walk and do nearly everthing now. but at the same time it was werid, there were some parts of her which seemed the same but some parts which have changed. but i guess being in hospital for 9 months is kinda gonna do that.

had a really lush day yesterday. went to woodies in the morning and pam spoke and it was really good. went to the windmill pub in portishead. it was really lush and just really relaxing. and i was so impressed with my desert i actully took a photo of it. went for a quick walk along the front and round the lake. drove back then went back to nettie's with james.k and diggaory as we only had about an hour and half before the evening service. church was good in the eve. tim's talk kinda compared saul to david and why one succeded snd one didnt. and how their traits we can have too and what we really need. had communion and i managed to slightly get our my fear and i actully went up for prayer. i guess its been quite hard. this year is so different to last just like what i'm doing and living in a different environment i guess mi've just found it a bit harder to adapt. I honestly love it here and stuff but i guess just sometimes it's quite hard. and i know i've not been spending enough time with God as i should, which doesn't really make things easier. it just maks me feel worse. arrrr life can so confusing at times. i know i just need to trust in God and it'll all be ok, but sometimes i guess it's easier said than done. i mean its not like a total disaster i get on so well with my flat mates and love them to pieces but i guess yeah just not being as disciplined as i should be and its sometimes hard to, i know i just need to make the time to. but sometimes even when i do God feels so far away. But we shouldn't rely on our feelings God is always here and always knows what we're going through so He's the best person to talk to. I think i just need to cling to those truths and stuff.mmm i should probs go and do some uni work really

am loving the uni lifestyle. i get lie in's(most of the time) and go out quite a lot, but opnly prob is never seem to work in my free time. have a 3000 essay due in end of nov and have no idea how to do it. apparently tho we're gonna talk about it in ip next week which should be helpful as we only have 2 ip lectures left. so this week. went to ramshackle with sarah, dave and ian last week but also meet up with hanna and becky and elanor which was really cool. jonathan left on sat to go to lancaster. didnt go to bed til about 5am fri which probs wasnt most sensible things as i was knackered and had really bad cough(but then again when are studenst ever sensible?). went home sat saw family and just had a night in as i couldnt stop coughing. sunday went to church and coughed my way through both sermons lol. didnt do much in the afternoon. popped and saw justin and esther and also dee. lectures have been ok this week. monday had a seminar on health and genes and was only 1 hour as we got all the work done in that time! went bowling in the eve and i won! got 130ish points including 3 strikes and 2 half strikes. decieded never to go again as dont thinki i can beat that!pastorate was good. we looked at worship and kinda hearing from God and focused on a passage in 1 cor. was really awesome and i guess some did seem quite relevant.weds had a lecture in the morning then went to woodies with 3 other uwe people for a student prayer ministry training. was really good and kinda did a bit at start of year team but think just doing again will help coz i so hate praying out loud. went to cu in the eve and it was good but i was so so knackered was almost asleep. meant to have an early night but ended up stayin up til like 2:30amish chattin to my flat mate. was gonna have a lie yesterdasy btu stupid fire alarm went off. heard an intermittant beep and thought i was alarm but realised it wasn't. we then left the buildin in pj's hoosy and shoes only to find out that was only a warning alarm. so stummbled back inside onl;y fopr the proper alarm to go off agin so went back out and had to wait around in the rain. had a 3 hour lecture with only a ten min break so felt very brain ded by the end of it. went out with sain for a bit in the eve. went ikea shoppin and i got wrappin paper to cover my notice borad and then got excited about bath mats!had a very lazy day today. didnt get up til 11am and then got dressed at like 2pmish! but to be honest i only got dressed coz i had ip at 3:40pm(so didnt feel motivated to go.)anywasy stuff is goin pretty well. think just need to sleep a bit more as i know my mood always goes up and down much more when i'm tired. right i should go to bed as i've just got in, and am feelin muchly tired

so intended a early night last night but so didn't happen! am feeling rather sleepy now tho. church was good last night got to sit on a comfy purple sofa. had a meeting with my personnal tutor this morning to talk about how i'm settling in and stuff it feels like i've been her so much longer than 2 weeks. meant to have a 3 hr lecture on 2 diff things but one guy didnt turn up, so we just had the inequaltites in health one, which actually found really interesting, and do have a 3000 word essay to do on it. we looked at a report called the black report which looked at mortality rates and then why discussed the inequalties and why they might occur. went to tesco bought some food and not done much else. see have work to do and need to tidy my room but it all just takes effort to do. mmm probs hould go pick up my clothes from the tumble dryer.

first blog!

ooooo this is all very exciting. my first blog! well i've just started at uwe in bristol, to do a child nursing degree. i live with 5 other girls all nurses and all probs just as mad as me! have had freshers week which was awesome think the highlight was pj pub crawl in town! have just had my week of lectures which wasnt too bad but to be honest i'm glad they are over now! we've had heaps of info chucked at us and actully really felt quite overwhelmed by it all! i think my firts yr consists of 4 modules 3 of which i've just started. we do a foundations of health which all nurisng studenst must do and theres a 3000 word essay and a biology exam to do. also doin a intro to care of children and their family which is course specific and think we have another essay plus observations and placements and finally IP(interprofession module), which everyone does and the classes are a mix of courses and we basically talk about how our course relates to each others in order to provide best possible care. So, yes not too sure what else to say. anyways i'm off out with my mum. xxx